1 Month

I survived the first month with 4 kids!  I'll be honest though it hasn't been too bad.  Yes I've had my meltdowns, just see the last post, but as George gets bigger and I healed up things have calmed down a lot.  Last night (I know Ashely will hate me for this) George slept from 9:30 to 3 am.  It was so nice to get a nice solid chunk of sleep at night!  I'm a much more pleasant person when I've had a good night sleep.  The kids still adore their new little brother and love to give him kisses and constantly touch him so it can be a little overwhelming at times for me because I feel like I"m being mauled by kids all day but I'll live. At his 2 week check up George had already gained 1 1/2 pounds and I'm quite confident he's packed on at least another pound.  I have a feeling he's going to rival Devin in size.  That's fine by me, I love me a chunky baby!  In other kiddo news Devin can now tie his shoes all by himself and is right on track with reading.  I got his AR reading range from his teacher yesterday and sure enough I'm not failing him as a mother.  Phew!  So things are going well over here, at least for now.  Ashely is visiting in a week so hopefully I'll have more to post about soon!

 It doesn't really save us any time in the morning but it sure makes him feel good about himself. 

Graham showing off his ability to fall asleep in odd positions.

And George of course just because he's so stinking cute!

First Meltdown

It happened I had my first meltdown post baby.  I guess that's not entirely true.  When George's umbilical cord started falling off after just 6 days and looked pretty nasty I may have started to cry.  I may have cried again when George ate too much and threw up almost his entire meal all over me and I had a flashback to when Caroline did that after EVERY feeding and ended up needing surgery, and I was convinced for a moment George would have the same problem.  Luckily Shawn was home both times and quickly came to my rescue and talked me off of the figurative ledge I was about of jump off of.  Yesterday Shawn was not home, so when I was helping Devin with his homework and was sad because he is not nearly as good at reading as Caroline was at his age and I thought I had failed him as a mother and then quickly spiraled out of control into a mess of sobbing and tears.  The bad mom thoughts then turned into frustration that I'm 30 lbs overweight, still sore from giving birth, and just about anything else I could stress about I did.  So when I texted Shawn that I had failed Devin as a mother he called me back seconds later to fix me.  It was good to hear that all of this was probably just stemming from the raging hormones, and lack of good sleep I've been experiencing lately.  So Shawn put Caroline in charge of the boys and I got to lay down and watch a few shows and Shawn brought dinner home for me.  He's my hero, he works a lot but always pulls though when I need him.  I felt much better by the time he got home and got to see that Caroline had made the boys write superhero books.  That also made me realize maybe that I've at least done an ok job with Caroline.  That girl is a superstar and I don't know what I would do without her some days.  Anyways I'm sure this is the first of may crazy meltdowns to come in the next few months but its good to know I have a sweet hubby and kids to pull me out of them.  So sit back and enjoy the fact that while sometimes I may appear relaxed and calm, I'm actually a whole lot of crazy these days!

He's too cute not to show off!  Love this little guy!