He's too cute not to show off! Love this little guy!
Friday, September 5, 2014
First Meltdown
It happened I had my first meltdown post baby. I guess that's not entirely true. When George's umbilical cord started falling off after just 6 days and looked pretty nasty I may have started to cry. I may have cried again when George ate too much and threw up almost his entire meal all over me and I had a flashback to when Caroline did that after EVERY feeding and ended up needing surgery, and I was convinced for a moment George would have the same problem. Luckily Shawn was home both times and quickly came to my rescue and talked me off of the figurative ledge I was about of jump off of. Yesterday Shawn was not home, so when I was helping Devin with his homework and was sad because he is not nearly as good at reading as Caroline was at his age and I thought I had failed him as a mother and then quickly spiraled out of control into a mess of sobbing and tears. The bad mom thoughts then turned into frustration that I'm 30 lbs overweight, still sore from giving birth, and just about anything else I could stress about I did. So when I texted Shawn that I had failed Devin as a mother he called me back seconds later to fix me. It was good to hear that all of this was probably just stemming from the raging hormones, and lack of good sleep I've been experiencing lately. So Shawn put Caroline in charge of the boys and I got to lay down and watch a few shows and Shawn brought dinner home for me. He's my hero, he works a lot but always pulls though when I need him. I felt much better by the time he got home and got to see that Caroline had made the boys write superhero books. That also made me realize maybe that I've at least done an ok job with Caroline. That girl is a superstar and I don't know what I would do without her some days. Anyways I'm sure this is the first of may crazy meltdowns to come in the next few months but its good to know I have a sweet hubby and kids to pull me out of them. So sit back and enjoy the fact that while sometimes I may appear relaxed and calm, I'm actually a whole lot of crazy these days!
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4 comments:
He is perfect!!!! What an adorable face...oh my goodness, I just want to squeeze and kiss his face! And you are an incredible momma... why do you think I always call/email you for advice? :)
I hate the postpartum crazy! :( Sorry friend. It is definitely the raging hormones and you are DEFINITELY not a bad Mom. I'm glad Shawn handles it all so well! Take your breaks when you need em, put on the tv when you need to. It's survival mode when you've got a newborn. Love you friend!
I was there for a week with the kids you're raising, and you certainly can't think you've failed one bit! Shawn is right. (Thank you Shawn!) It's the hormones talking. Just ignore them. And each kid learns differently, especially boys and girls. Devin is doing amazingly well, his skills are more mechanical/math. No, he's not Caroline. He needs to be Devin.
Amen to the above comments. You are fantastic and having babies puts the body through some serious crazy!
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